To lash out my frustration

I need a place to lash out my frustation, to express my feelings, to shout out lout, to scream about Sadiq & Co!!!

I am soo tired of them pointing fingers at me, esp my schedules. I have been doing the scheduels since it started. Like looking at which scenes to shoot on the days I was given and also liase with the casts' timing. To get everyone on set so they can roll the camera.

AND yet, I get complaints or should I say, they basically said that it's because of my schedules everyone is tired. The casts' get annoyed for waiting so long to do their scene.

HAVE they thought about...if they changed the call time, did they inform me about the changes so I can tell my other talents or extras to come a bit later? NO! My schedules are just guide lines for you to see what to shoot. My timing may be off coz I don't go on set. I just schedule according to what I think it's ok to me. And I release the call sheets early so you guys can have a look and get back to me. NONE of you did that except during the day of the shoot!! This is becoming very frequent.

LAST NIGHT I HAD LIKE 3 exactly smses!! Telling me that I didn't give them enough set up time! I gave them 40mins and time to roll camera, PLEASE PLAY AROUND WITH THE TIMING. HOW WILL I KNOW WHAT ARE YOU GUYS GONNA SHOOT?!?!?! First the director sent it to me, then the producer forwarded the director's sms, then the assistant director forwarded the SAME sms to ME! HOW IRRITATING CAN THAT BE? THE assistant director added that 15mins is NOT ENOUGH FOR SETTING UP. I'm LIKE HELOOO...I GAVE YOU GUYS 40mins for master setup, which is the normal duration. AND THEN COZ it's at the SAME PLACE ie: reception area, I GAVE ANOTHER 15mins to change the casts' wardrobe and to reset the ligthing since you've already have the master setup!!! UNLESS OF COURSE they change to a different location perhaps into the office, then I'll give another 40mins of setup time!!!! WHAT THE HECK!!!!

It's like I am getting blamed for them RUNNING LATE!!!! PUH LEASEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!! MY TIMING IS ALL ESTIMATED TIMING. I WOULDN'T KNOW HOW LONG DO YOU NEED COZ I NEVER GET ANY FEED BACK. I TRIED SO HARD TO PLEASE EVERYONE and you all thought I just put the time for fun??

FINE if that's what you all want...I GIVE YOU AMPLE TIME TO DO WHATEVER YOU WANT. DON'T COME BACK TO ME AND TELL ME WE HAVE OVERRUN! THAT is NO LONGER my problem. IT is YOUR problem on set! I am just scheduling it so you can know what yo shoot. About timing...You were NEVER ON TIME! NOT EVEN ONCE WITH THE TIME I GAVE!!!! SO can it be MY FAULT?!?!?!?! YOU never even once try to follow the time that I allocate....can't even push your director for heaven's sake!!!

I AM JUST SOO UPSET!!! Seriously I AM! If things doesn't go well on set, it's my schedules problem...WHAT THE HECK!?!?!

P/S: I am so sorry to my readers...this is a very angry post. I don't know who should I confide to or to say anything. I am so angry and upset that I don't know who to tell around me. It's like I want to tell someone who can listen and probably advise me but somehow...I just can't talk about it. It just makes me boil even more..so sorry =)